Nothing at all.

I am spending all my creativity on my jobs. That’s actually why I chose those jobs. I had so much unused creativity, it drove me crazy.

Spending it in my job, it is so fulfilling and motivating. The job is easy when it’s… easy ! That doesn't mean there are no ups and downs, no challenges and that it's quiet.
In fact, my jobs are the farthest you can be from quiet. But it's easy to deal with the down parts when you really love what you do and are good at it.

Hey, I built my self confidence with those jobs. I know what I do I do well. I'm not the best, but I do my best. That's all that really counts.

It is exhausting because I work between 40-50 hours a week plus 5-10 hours commuting sometimes.

And when I do knit, I frog over and over again with a nice yarn (for instance, Freedom Spirit), just knitting for the relaxing movement.

But I do crochet a bit.

Idid a star afghan and I’m doing a shawl with the same pattern, back and forth instead of in the round.

I do go on Ravelry now and then, lurking and updating.

I write a lot (in French), my sentimental life being very … active these days. Erotic and sentimental slam, and ramblings on my life.

Professionnally and sentimentally, I couldn’t be more happy, even if it’s not always easy. I cry sometimes, but I laugh a lot, and it is so relieving and makes me feel good to hear myself laugh again.

I’m learning a lot and have many challenges on my plate right now.

I love it. I’m actually DOING things, turning pages (virtually and literally : I’m editing a magazine…) and taking huge steps ahead.

Slowly, I'm becoming a grown-up girl. But only for the good parts : confidence, self-estime, energy, going forward, free. I've been saying for a long time now : "When i grow up...". But since a few months, I don't say it anymore. I guess I'm getting close to my goal.

I know that because on many aspects, I feel I'm getting back to my teenage years. But again, only for the good parts of it : having fun. Lots of fun.

I guess that’s what “happy” means…